Shaving My Head: About a Difficult Battle With An Unknown Hair Condition

 

Hello everyone; I must say I’m excited to be posting again.

Last Friday (May 25, 2018) was one of the more eventful days as of recently. Emotionally, I had (and still have) been feeling better than ever than in the past few weeks, even months. My emotional state on the positive side, I’ve been having much more motivation to do things and a lot more ideas, as well. Things are looking up, and I’m grateful. But there’s one issue that has been sort of an elephant in the room when talking about recent months. And that issue is: hair loss.

At 19 years old, that’s most certainly an unusual thing for me to be dealing with. But still, that’s the hand I’ve been dealt. The causes have been going on for probably about a year now, but it’s actually accelerated in the past 3 months or so. In fact, in early April, there was a point where I had lost more hair in 2 weeks than in the previous 2 or 3 months. Eventually, it got to the point where my hair was getting weird and patchy, and of course, a lot shorter than I would have liked. It soon got to the point where I was forced to make a decision: start all over again and take good care of my hair and the situations causing the hair loss, or force myself to deal with my uneven hair. I was hesitant at first, for I hadn’t had a haircut in over 2 years prior, but eventually I decided that the aesthetic benefits would be much more better if I chose the latter of those options. And that I did.

Now as I mentioned in the video, there are two reasons that this whole thing started. The first and the primary reason is a disorder known as trichotillomania. Now this can be difficult to talk about sometimes, but I’m gonna do this anyways. I feel like I should educate the public a little, and be more transparent with what’s going on. Trichotillomania is a condition that causes people to have an impulsive urge to pull out their own hair. It’s similar to OCD, given that the urges are sort of a tick, or an “addiction”, for a real lack of a better phrase. It’s not something you consciously do. It’s not like I think “Okay, haircut time!” and start pulling out my hair. It’s different than that. It’s unconscious. It’s comparable to how you can have a bowl of popcorn next to you while watching TV and the whole thing will be done before you know it. You don’t particularly desire the popcorn, but you just keep on eating it, just because. That’s basically the same feeling, really, but instead of popcorn it’s tugging on hairs or small clumps of hair until they come out. Shaving all hair is the best option for many trichotillomaniacs, because 1) you run out of stuff you can pull, and 2) it undoes much of the damage done by the condition.

That’s the main reason, but not the only one. Additionally, I’m on a medication known as Lithium Carbonate. It’s commonly and most often used to treat Bipolar Disorder, which I have regrettably been diagnosed with. Things were going well for the first few months I was taking it, things were pretty good. But then, after doing some more research on the effects of medications, and I read that lithium caused hair loss for a lot of people. I didn’t think about it a lot at first, but then I started being more observant. Whenever I’d wash or rub my hair, tons of it would just fall out without much effort at all. That scared me a lot, and I eventually consulted with my psychiatrist. She confirmed that it was a side effect, and that if the hair loss persisted–which it did–that she’d half the dosage and proceed from there. So although I’m taking a lot less of the medication, I still feel like that was a huge contribution to my decision to shave my head.

But things don’t just stop now that I’m almost bald. There’s a series of other things I will try to do in order to make sure my hair grows back better, stronger and longer, and that I don’t fall back and undo all of my progress. Here are what they are:

-Using a fidget toy, more specifically a fidget orb, in order to keep my hands busy and away from my head

-Using a multivitamin or a supplement such as biotin, as well as using a special shampoo, such as Jamaican Black Castor Oil, which I’ve heard highly of

-Not washing my hair every single day. Doing so would dry out the scalp, damaging hair and making it break easily. Only doing so every few days will preserve natural oils produced by the scalp, moisturizing and keeping things soft

-When it gets long, combing my hair regularly, and possibly keeping it braided. Not doing so would cause tangles that makes the hair less healthy and easier to pick.

After all this, I’m still very optimistic for the future. Besides this, I actually feel pretty good. I think the biggest issue with this will be dealing with self confidence/dysphoria issues. That’s just another in a long line of things I need to work on, though. Needless to say, I’m gonna keep on trying, and a year from now I’m most definitely going to make an update. Look out!

Writing Ideas

Hello all, and happy Thanksgiving time! For those of you who recognize it, that is.

So, I know I’m keeping up the pattern of sparsely posting here and neglecting to keep up. I actually was about to make a post yesterday, about my experience working at a haunted house; sort of a late Halloween season-themed post. But then, I made a decision. I remember why I made this blog—to share all of the awesome writing, art, and spiritual concept I love. And I realize that I’m starting to stray farther from that that I’d thought.

So now, I’m collecting a bunch of different writing ideas from you guys and doing some of them, and putting them here on my blog. This is a good way for me to what people are interested in and to continue with my writing at the same time. It’ll be fun to see what you guys want to see, and I’ll have a great time making your ideas come to life.

I do also have some ideas of my own that I’m working on, and I’ll still work on those as well, but I’d still like to take on some new ones. So if you have anything that you want to be done, any poems or short stories, send your ideas my way! Poems and short stories are my forté, and you can check out some of the other things I’ve done by searching throughout this blog. Have an amazing day, and I can’t wait to hear all of your wonderful ideas!

 

My First Month As A College Student

I became a college student this week.

Yes, it’s true, and I can imagine what you’re thinking right now. “It’s the end of September! What kind of school are you going to that starts their classes so late?”. And if I were you, I’d be thinking the exact same thing. But I will explain.

My classes did in fact start last month – August 28th, to be exact. It happened, but I’d say that I was quite unprepared for college. The summer was not focused on my education, but rather my excessive sleep and several empty promises. I sort of lost my way, I guess. High school tired me out so much and I didn’t know what exactly I wanted to do with myself. I didn’t even decide for sure where I was going to college until early/mid August, and before then, my plan was to just get a job, earn some money and go with the flow. But it wasn’t as easy or as simple as I thought. I had to choose college in order to have some order and a foundation in my life.

A week before classes started and it finally sunk in what was going to happen. College. The official next big step in my life. I’d be looking back at it for my entire life, no doubt. Though I wasn’t prepared and I didn’t like the idea, I decided to just go through the motions, do what I could. “Do what you gotta do so you can do what you wanna do.”

Well, in short, it wasn’t so hot at first. The first day felt normal in an odd way; I hadn’t at all absorbed what was going on. I wasn’t as there as I should’ve been. The whole week was like that, and I just went along with it, treating it as something that I had to just get up and do. And I thought that that would be the whole college experience, and I was thoroughly disappointed. I felt like I didn’t fit in there, like everyone knew what they were doing besides me.

But things got better on their own. Earlier on I’d agreed with myself that I’d try my hardest to make something out of the college experience, to not squander it and get good grades and to actually do something. So I guess that’s when I started having to implement it. More and more work got assigned, and I had to adapt.

And this week is when I realized, it happened. It wasn’t like I instantly became aware and successful in college life, but that I came to a realization. It was just after class on Wednesday, and I was sitting right outside of the library, and I was thinking about all the things I had done. I just left class early. I worked on my homework and studied by myself. I saw a cute girl and wanted to say hi. I evaluated what my days had been spent doing and I realized: I was a college student. The way I acted and the things I did finally reflected it. At that moment I felt it, and it was different than how I’d felt on the 28th of August. And it was okay.

Now I hope I’ve avoided turning this into a meaningless babble about my recent college experience. But I hope you guys understand my feelings, and I’d love to know if any of you have been through anything similar. Comment below with questions or comments; I love to hear about other people’s experiences as well.

My content, or lack thereof

Hello all, this is just a quick post to remind you that I still exist.

I love creating content for people, and even though I’m just getting off the ground, I put a lot of time and thought into what I post. It’s been a little over a month since I posted something on here, and even then, posting was not as frequent as I wish it was. I can tell you 100% honestly that I’m working hard to change that. There’s one huge project I’m working on, and several changes should be coming to this blog in order to improve. As of now, the circumstances in my life have prevented me from doing all that I want to do, but I no longer want to have that stop me from making good, frequent content.

I hope you guys understand! Although I have yet to make a formal post about this, I now have social media that should have some other interesting things on there as well. I’m on Facebook as /thelikewisepage and on Instagram as @likewiseofficial.see you guys around, and I’m sure you’ll love that big project I have in store!

What my life has been recently

Hello all! Whatever has brought you to this blog to continue reading my posts, whether it be my life, my traveling, or my writing, I greatly appreciate you being here.

As of right now, posting on here has been difficult. It’s not that I don’t want to post, it’s that I don’t have much time to do it. College admissions, schoolwork, my writing, and taking care of my mental health have been my top priorities and have thus been taking up the most of my time. Honesty is beautiful when it comes to my fans and my viewers, and honestly, life has been very stressful these past several weeks. Hence, I’ve found myself with the inability to post nearly as much as I want to.

That being said, I expect things to pick up in a few weeks, at least. Finishing high school on the 26th of this May, I’ll have a lot more time and energy to focus on my blogging and my writing career—my passion in life and the main thing I want to do with myself.

To make things clear, I’m not going on a hiatus or anything; I just think I owe you guys an explanation, and that’s what this is. I’ve made a promise to always be as open and honest as possible with my viewers, and even though I’m in the beginning stages, this is no exception. I appreciate all of the support you have given me thus far, and will continue to give me in the future!

My Quebec Trip – Prelude

Hello all! There is a big surprise that I’ve been waiting to unveil, and I think now is the perfect time to do so. For a few days before and during spring break, I, my brother, and several other students from school will be taking a class trip to Quebec, Canada!

The group of us will be visiting many different sites and attractions all over the province. These include a tour of Quebec city, the Musée du Fort, Montmorency Falls, and a visit to the Montréal Science Centre. We will be accompanied by tour guides, chaperones, and Mr. Petit, the wonderful and extremely generous French teacher who will be running the trip! The full itinerary can be found at the bottom of this article.

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A meeting discussing the details of the trip. (Feb. 21, 2017 10:45 AM)

We will be leaving first thing in the morning on April 12, 2017—that’s Wednesday—and arriving back in the states 5 days later. I will make a post every evening detailing the events and experiences of the day. This will include pictures, vlogs, and firsthand accounts from other people attending the trip with me. I also plan to release a poem or short story here and there, just so my blog won’t be entirely focused on the trip.

I’m very excited for this trip! This will be the 4th time I’ve travelled outside of the United States, and the 2nd time I’ve been to Canada. The first time was when I was 7 years old, though, so this should be a great new experience for me, anyways. Oh and by the way, we won’t be taking a flight there; a long bus ride to and from the country awaits us. All of this is sure to bring a fresh new adventure that you all are sure to enjoy!

 

Click here to view the full itinerary