Shaving My Head: About a Difficult Battle With An Unknown Hair Condition

 

Hello everyone; I must say I’m excited to be posting again.

Last Friday (May 25, 2018) was one of the more eventful days as of recently. Emotionally, I had (and still have) been feeling better than ever than in the past few weeks, even months. My emotional state on the positive side, I’ve been having much more motivation to do things and a lot more ideas, as well. Things are looking up, and I’m grateful. But there’s one issue that has been sort of an elephant in the room when talking about recent months. And that issue is: hair loss.

At 19 years old, that’s most certainly an unusual thing for me to be dealing with. But still, that’s the hand I’ve been dealt. The causes have been going on for probably about a year now, but it’s actually accelerated in the past 3 months or so. In fact, in early April, there was a point where I had lost more hair in 2 weeks than in the previous 2 or 3 months. Eventually, it got to the point where my hair was getting weird and patchy, and of course, a lot shorter than I would have liked. It soon got to the point where I was forced to make a decision: start all over again and take good care of my hair and the situations causing the hair loss, or force myself to deal with my uneven hair. I was hesitant at first, for I hadn’t had a haircut in over 2 years prior, but eventually I decided that the aesthetic benefits would be much more better if I chose the latter of those options. And that I did.

Now as I mentioned in the video, there are two reasons that this whole thing started. The first and the primary reason is a disorder known as trichotillomania. Now this can be difficult to talk about sometimes, but I’m gonna do this anyways. I feel like I should educate the public a little, and be more transparent with what’s going on. Trichotillomania is a condition that causes people to have an impulsive urge to pull out their own hair. It’s similar to OCD, given that the urges are sort of a tick, or an “addiction”, for a real lack of a better phrase. It’s not something you consciously do. It’s not like I think “Okay, haircut time!” and start pulling out my hair. It’s different than that. It’s unconscious. It’s comparable to how you can have a bowl of popcorn next to you while watching TV and the whole thing will be done before you know it. You don’t particularly desire the popcorn, but you just keep on eating it, just because. That’s basically the same feeling, really, but instead of popcorn it’s tugging on hairs or small clumps of hair until they come out. Shaving all hair is the best option for many trichotillomaniacs, because 1) you run out of stuff you can pull, and 2) it undoes much of the damage done by the condition.

That’s the main reason, but not the only one. Additionally, I’m on a medication known as Lithium Carbonate. It’s commonly and most often used to treat Bipolar Disorder, which I have regrettably been diagnosed with. Things were going well for the first few months I was taking it, things were pretty good. But then, after doing some more research on the effects of medications, and I read that lithium caused hair loss for a lot of people. I didn’t think about it a lot at first, but then I started being more observant. Whenever I’d wash or rub my hair, tons of it would just fall out without much effort at all. That scared me a lot, and I eventually consulted with my psychiatrist. She confirmed that it was a side effect, and that if the hair loss persisted–which it did–that she’d half the dosage and proceed from there. So although I’m taking a lot less of the medication, I still feel like that was a huge contribution to my decision to shave my head.

But things don’t just stop now that I’m almost bald. There’s a series of other things I will try to do in order to make sure my hair grows back better, stronger and longer, and that I don’t fall back and undo all of my progress. Here are what they are:

-Using a fidget toy, more specifically a fidget orb, in order to keep my hands busy and away from my head

-Using a multivitamin or a supplement such as biotin, as well as using a special shampoo, such as Jamaican Black Castor Oil, which I’ve heard highly of

-Not washing my hair every single day. Doing so would dry out the scalp, damaging hair and making it break easily. Only doing so every few days will preserve natural oils produced by the scalp, moisturizing and keeping things soft

-When it gets long, combing my hair regularly, and possibly keeping it braided. Not doing so would cause tangles that makes the hair less healthy and easier to pick.

After all this, I’m still very optimistic for the future. Besides this, I actually feel pretty good. I think the biggest issue with this will be dealing with self confidence/dysphoria issues. That’s just another in a long line of things I need to work on, though. Needless to say, I’m gonna keep on trying, and a year from now I’m most definitely going to make an update. Look out!

Likewise.blog now back up

Hello all. Some of you probably already know this, but from Dec. 2, 2017 to Dec. 13, 2017 (that’s today), Likewise.blog was down and was unable to be accessed. I’m back up now, though, and again you’re able to access all of my delicious writing. If net neutrality is struck down then I’ll surely lose a lot of viewers, but for now, look out for more of my work to come soon! I actually have a few things planned, that I should be talking about more later.

Writing Ideas

Hello all, and happy Thanksgiving time! For those of you who recognize it, that is.

So, I know I’m keeping up the pattern of sparsely posting here and neglecting to keep up. I actually was about to make a post yesterday, about my experience working at a haunted house; sort of a late Halloween season-themed post. But then, I made a decision. I remember why I made this blog—to share all of the awesome writing, art, and spiritual concept I love. And I realize that I’m starting to stray farther from that that I’d thought.

So now, I’m collecting a bunch of different writing ideas from you guys and doing some of them, and putting them here on my blog. This is a good way for me to what people are interested in and to continue with my writing at the same time. It’ll be fun to see what you guys want to see, and I’ll have a great time making your ideas come to life.

I do also have some ideas of my own that I’m working on, and I’ll still work on those as well, but I’d still like to take on some new ones. So if you have anything that you want to be done, any poems or short stories, send your ideas my way! Poems and short stories are my forté, and you can check out some of the other things I’ve done by searching throughout this blog. Have an amazing day, and I can’t wait to hear all of your wonderful ideas!

 

What my life has been recently

Hello all! Whatever has brought you to this blog to continue reading my posts, whether it be my life, my traveling, or my writing, I greatly appreciate you being here.

As of right now, posting on here has been difficult. It’s not that I don’t want to post, it’s that I don’t have much time to do it. College admissions, schoolwork, my writing, and taking care of my mental health have been my top priorities and have thus been taking up the most of my time. Honesty is beautiful when it comes to my fans and my viewers, and honestly, life has been very stressful these past several weeks. Hence, I’ve found myself with the inability to post nearly as much as I want to.

That being said, I expect things to pick up in a few weeks, at least. Finishing high school on the 26th of this May, I’ll have a lot more time and energy to focus on my blogging and my writing career—my passion in life and the main thing I want to do with myself.

To make things clear, I’m not going on a hiatus or anything; I just think I owe you guys an explanation, and that’s what this is. I’ve made a promise to always be as open and honest as possible with my viewers, and even though I’m in the beginning stages, this is no exception. I appreciate all of the support you have given me thus far, and will continue to give me in the future!

Some technical difficulties 

Hello all, due to some issues with my phone storage, the Day 2 Quebec trip post and part of the Day 1 post will be delayed. Photo galleries will also be uploaded after the trip on separate posts, and then I will update the posts with the links. Sorry for the inconvenience!

Edit (Apr. 15, 2017 @12:26 a.m.)

I’ve thought about how I’ve been formatting these posts. Given the circumstances, I feel like it’s a lot better if I publish the posts when I arrive back in the states. A reliable Internet connection and good computer access are a necessity for making quality posts, and those are two things that I don’t have right now. Don’t worry though! I’m having a great time and I can’t wait to tell you all about it when I get back.

My Quebec Trip – Prelude

Hello all! There is a big surprise that I’ve been waiting to unveil, and I think now is the perfect time to do so. For a few days before and during spring break, I, my brother, and several other students from school will be taking a class trip to Quebec, Canada!

The group of us will be visiting many different sites and attractions all over the province. These include a tour of Quebec city, the Musée du Fort, Montmorency Falls, and a visit to the Montréal Science Centre. We will be accompanied by tour guides, chaperones, and Mr. Petit, the wonderful and extremely generous French teacher who will be running the trip! The full itinerary can be found at the bottom of this article.

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A meeting discussing the details of the trip. (Feb. 21, 2017 10:45 AM)

We will be leaving first thing in the morning on April 12, 2017—that’s Wednesday—and arriving back in the states 5 days later. I will make a post every evening detailing the events and experiences of the day. This will include pictures, vlogs, and firsthand accounts from other people attending the trip with me. I also plan to release a poem or short story here and there, just so my blog won’t be entirely focused on the trip.

I’m very excited for this trip! This will be the 4th time I’ve travelled outside of the United States, and the 2nd time I’ve been to Canada. The first time was when I was 7 years old, though, so this should be a great new experience for me, anyways. Oh and by the way, we won’t be taking a flight there; a long bus ride to and from the country awaits us. All of this is sure to bring a fresh new adventure that you all are sure to enjoy!

 

Click here to view the full itinerary

My first ever book signing! 3/11/2017

Hello all. As some of you already know, yesterday was a very eventful day; I did my first ever book signing ever!

The signing was for my teen/YA novel, The Month Of June. It took place at a local bookstore known as 2nd & Charles, often frequented by interesting and enthusiastic readers. I was set up at the front of the store, to the front right as soon as you walk in the door. I must admit that the location wasn’t ideal, but I still went with it!

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I saw several interesting people there, and sold several books. Nobody asked to take a picture to be on this blog, but I did meet a nice old man who told me a very interesting story about himself. I plan to write a short story based on it.

All in all, it was was a pretty good first experience. I really hope to do things like that again. And if you live in or around the area, there are still a few copies left at the store. Head over and buy one if you can!